What the heck?

So today was weird. I'm sitting in my art class, and after working for almost an hour on my painting, I was doing some practice washes on watercolor paper (for any non artsy people who might be wondering, it's basically wetting the paper and applying paint to it to make it look pretty. It basically looks like this.) But anyway, I've been carrying around these little 2x4 pieces of paper around with me for about a week, and today I was using them today. Well... A few of them are weird. Like, really weird. I noticed that there are some scratch marks in the paper. I don't know how they could've gotten like that. I wanted to see if there was something on them that I could bring out with another wash. I didn't get to try it out because class ended, but maybe on Monday I can try it out.

There were more footprints this morning, as well. I didn't think much of it though. I swear, school starts too early in the morning. DX

It's Cold

It's been cold outside lately. Like, really cold. It's not unusual for this time of year, but it's just been making it harder and harder to wake up in the morning. Warm bed + cold room = NO, I WANNA SLEEP. But I still do it anyway. Some how.

Then again, maybe it's because of my dreams. I keep waking up to tapping on my wall, and in my dreams He is always standing at the door watching me. I don't want t o sleep because I don't want to dream about Him, but at the same time it's the only time I really feel safe anymore. I haven't seen him, but I don't like being paranoid about Him being around the corner. I can't even walk through my house in the dark anymore. I don't think light makes him go away, but I feel better at least if I can see...

I know He is around here somewhere, though. I wonder if there's someone else around who know of Him, or if He knows that I'm aware of Him. Either way, I can't deny the fact that I saw tracks going through the woods. But the less I think about Him, the less likely He is to bother me.

...Right?

How?

I just wanted peace. Then I found Him and my curiousity got the better of me. I just wanted to help people. I have more hope for others then I do for myself, so maybe if I can spread that I can be of more use to people.

The Hero part of my name is a lie. I am no Hero. I just want to help and know.